Hello Sports Fans

Sorry for the long delay in updating my blog! Here is what is going on in my world! I went to Indy for my sis's 50th Birthday pary and it rocked! Here is a pic of my best friends in the whole world! Robin, Kim (the birthday girl) and me. She was totally surprised and we had a wonderful time. We danced, my niece did the cutest skit of moments throughout Kim's life, we ate, drank and were merry! We got to take a moment to tell her how much we love her so it was great!

OK...what else.....church is....I know you won't believe this.....OFF THE CHAIN!!! Here is a prayer of blessing my pastor prayed over the women yesterday. Many of us have not been blessed as Issac blessed Jacob in Genesis 27. He thought he was blessing Esau but Esau had sold his birthright for some stew and then lost his blessing too. Many of us didn't have fathers to pass a blessing on to us and we don't have our society set up anymore that God's word is important or even necessary for our lives. If we live a true Christian life people treat us like we are strange but that's OK Christians are foreigners...we are not home because heaven is our home! Here is the blessing:

Dear God,
I trust you to give me what’s mine.
Thank you for my future.
Thank you for my hope.
Thank you for my plan.
Thank you for what’s coming to me.
Thank you that I am special.
Thank you that I am significant.
Thank you for making me a Queen.
And may I not settle for anything that reduces me from being the Queen that you have made me.
Thank you that I can look forward to getting from you all that your will has promised to me.

I’m going to follow you until my change comes.

Thank you, Jesus!

I bought the sermon on CD so I could write this blessing down. I transcribed it from the CD, printed 3 copies: posted one on each bathroom mirror and the third copy in my Bible. I will read it everyday until it is ingrained in my heart. I was in tears and had I not been in church I would have been in audible sobs while the Pastor was reading the sermon. OK...church got better.....

I volunterred to be a mentor in the Project Turn Around outreach ministry at my church. Click here to check it out! Click on "The National Church Adopt-A-School" program link to see a video on the program. I will be mentoring 4 teen-age girls at a local high school. After my interview the man, whose name is Moses, shook my hand and said "God has a message for you. He wants you to know that He has something big in store for you. He is getting ready to do something in your life. And your latter years will be far greater then the former." I started to cry and he told me not to. He then told me he would be honored for me to be a mentor at the school where he oversees the outreach program. I was so honored and humbled. God is working in my life and I am so excited to be His vessel. God uses broken people so I am not too broke for God to use me. He used Rahab who was a prostitute at one time in the lineage of Jesus Christ! He used Moses to lead the Isralites out of captivity and Moses was a murdered. He use Samson and Samson was a big time player! He used Peter who denied at one time that Jesus was God. So I know He can use me too!

Go get your blessing!

My Biggest Struggle

WEIGHT! I have battled my weight my whole life. The battle has reared it's ugly head once again. I was 49 pounds lighter this time last year. Today I am taking control and going to win this battle in my lifelong war once again! It's time to bring in the recon team!

I am more than a conquerer! I can do all thing through Christ who strengthenes me!

So, hear this you ugly 49 pounds....you're going down, baby!

Who I Am!

I found this on the web today! It can be found here! I rock and so do you!!! I don't care when I think or what you think about me, all I care about is what God thinks of me!

I am a child of God John 1: 12 I am a joint-heir with Christ Romans 8: 17I am the righteousness of God in Christ. 2 Cor.5: 21I am the temple of the Holy Spirit. 1 Cor. 6: 19 I am the apple of His eye. Zec.2: 8I am an ambassador for Christ. 2 Cor.5: 20I am free from condemnation Romans 8: 1I am more than a conqueror Romans 8: 17I am the salt of the earth. Mathew 5: 13I am the light of the world Mathew 5: 14 & Eph. 5: 8I am a member of the household of faith Gal.6 :10I am a branch of the True Vine John 15: 5I am the will of God James 1: 8I am in the palm of the Lord’s Hand Isa. 49: 16I am covered by the shadow of His Hand Isa. 51: 6I am loved by God as much as He loves Jesus John 17:23I am in God’s Hand and none can pluck me out John10:28 am delivered from sin Romans 6: 7I am free from weaknesses and diseases. Matt.8: 17I am complete in Him. Col.2: 10I am translated into the kingdom of God’s Son.Col.1:13 I am delivered from the power of darkness Col. 1: 13I am accepted in Him Eph. 1: 6I am dead to sin and alive to God in Christ.Rom.6:11I am seated in heavenly places in Christ. Eph. 2: 6I am redeemed from the curse of the law. Gal. 3: 13I am in Christ. 1 Cor. 1: 30I am hidden with Christ in God. Col. 3: 3This revelation of God concerning me is found in His Holy Word. Sense knowledge (the knowledge gained through seeing, hearing, smelling, touching and tasting) and my varying circumstances may not reveal the same and in reality contradict this revelation, but when I stand on the naked Word of God alone, God confirms His Word.I am the daughter of the Almighty God through Jesus Christ, His Son. Chosen before the foundation of the world to be His witness in this world and to do His will for His glory. My Heavenly Father promised to lead, guide and provide all the days of my life. I am the Lord’s ambassador in this world. God by His Spirit indwells me and now I am His Temple. My relationship with the Lord is real and it is a privilege to know Him, love Him and serve Him!! Praise His wonderful Name!

The Trip

San Francisco was great! I got to see Alcrataz (see it way in the distance, in the middle of the pic...yep, that's it) and the Golden Gate Bridge from Pier 39, we didn't get any closer and didn't get to go into downtown San Francisco but maybe if I ever get to go again I will. We went to Santa Cruz which was OK. Darrell took me to a really nice restaurant that was, we thought, the same restaurant where a scene from Mrs. Doubtfire was filmed but turns out it was 2 blocks from that restaurant. He got pulled over for driving too slow after we left and, thank God, he was not arrested cause I had no idea where we were or how to get back to my hotel! I told him that is what he gets for DWB (Driving While Black!)!!!

The best part was I got to see Deana again! I am sooooooo very proud of her! Her family is just lovely, she has a nice home and keeps it so clean. She made dinner for us and it was wonderful. She has done so well for herself. Completely the opposite of the chaos she grew up in! Here she is! From the left: me, Kaylen, Deana, Kody, and Karsha.

I am confused about Darrell. We did have a nice time but I think I liked him more than he liked me. He is still on the Internet dating site where we met and checks it everyday because it tells you when the last time a member logged on. I do check because I want to know. He says he is not looking for other women and that I am the only one he is interested in but yet his actions speak louder than his words. I did put my profile back up, just to guard my heart. He is a VERY good man. If I want someone who will always take care of me, never cheat on me, and be kind and loving he is the man. But, there was no passion at all. He is affectionate but the passion was not there. He doesn't like to kiss and that is a very big deal for me. I think he is more concerned with making money than having a life long partner, a lover, a wife. My feeling is that you can't take money with you but the people you loved....that will never die! He is practically the sole caregiver for his mother. He changes her diapers and makes sure she is feed through her feeding tube every 4 hours. How many sons would do that? Probably just a hand full of men. So, I just don't know. I really like him, I could see myself growing old with him.....but..... and it's a big but....he has halitosis. Bad halitosis! I didn't tell him because how do you tell someone that. Deana said I should said "Here's some gum. Take it with you everywhere." She is so funny!! She said he is a good man too because he was helping her daughter with her homework. How many men would do that too? Again, not many! Time will tell if he is the one or not. I do ask anyone reading this to pray for him. He does not have medical insurance and just ran out of his blood pressure medicine. It is 236/117.....way too high. I am afraid he will have a stroke. He has an enlarged heart and is not supposed to lift more than 5o pounds but lifts his mother all the time. He needs God's healing!

So I won't be moving to California anytime soon. Would love to get out of here but don't know where to go! Somewhere warm and tropical! hmmmm

Sad

I am profoundly sad....don't know why....just am.

Yes, I do know why...it's my job. My new partner is a pain in the ass. I miss my old partner...he rocked. This new one wants to prove how smart he is...he wants to be the "big duck in the little pond"....he is trying to prove he knows more than I do.....what I joke, I dont' know crap so it doesn't take much to do that! haha My job used to be great....now I cry on the way in to work. I used to love it....amazing how one person can make your life miserable! I wish he would quit....I know that won't happen. I need to find what it is I am to learn from this situation.

Also, my son is mad at me again. Matt stays mad at me. His wife won't email me anymore....they even cut me off from Heather....she is not allowed to answer my emails either. He is so very wrong.....so very, very wrong. I am soooooooooooooooo disappointed in his behaviour. But, I have Dave back....to tell the truth that makes up for Matt 100 times over! Dave is an amazing man, he is smart, the funniest person on the planet, he is caring, loving, and the kind of son every mother wishes for. I am so proud of him I can hardly stand it! His wife is just too precious! His dauther is a joy! I love all three of them with all my heart and soul! Pray for Matt. He has issues. He makes me sad.

Scared, very, very scared.....

Only 4 days until I fly to San Francisco to meet Darrell. I am scared out of my mind! Not scared of him hurting me physically, but rather emotionally. It's like the first date that you've waited your whole life for. Not only have I bought new clothes, but I had the highlights and new cut done on my do today! I'm going for the pedicure tomorrow or Monday. I'll board that plane Wednesday morning at 9:30 a.m. and in a few hours I'll land in San Francisco and be in the arms of the man I've been talking to, dreaming about, and planning a tentative future with. Will I like him as much as I think I will? Will he like me? Will there be chemistry between us? Will we be as compatible in person as we are on the phone? Will he pick his teeth, or worse...his nose in public? Will he have bad breath? Will he fall madly in love with me, treat me with respect and kindness all the days of my life?

Or will it be a nice trip, to meet a nice man, and I'll have a nice flight home, and go on living my life?

So much is at stake. I can't relax but I want to so very desperately. Really I do! I've been in tears for 2 days now. I'm just a nervous wreck. I want to cancel the trip. He bought the ticket, so obviously he cares for me. No man has ever done that for me. It's been 50/50 with every man I've ever met. But I'm not the person I was. I have confidence and refuse to be treated as anything but a woman who is to be cherished and treated as such! I have no problem saying "Next". As a matter of fact I got asked out tonight by 3 different men. I turned them all down because I want to focus on Darrell and see what happens. They were all local men but I would rather fly to San Francisco to see what will happen with this guy. He seems different, he seems real, he seems like the total package. I'll know in 4 more days.

Life is sweet.

Spring Break

One of the joys of returning to school is Spring Break! Seems like the semester just started and here it is time for a break already! Oh, what am I doing on Spring Break you ask? I'm going here to see the man who owns this company , New Oak Cabinetry. I've never been to San Francisco before so am thrilled! I can hardly wait. We are doing to the Pier, Napa Valley, Alcatraz, and to see Deana! Deana babysat the boys when they were little. She lived across the street from us and we have never lost contact. Deana is married now with kids of her own. She is a very good Christian and has a husband who is very good to her. She is almost like a daughter to me and I just love her to death! We haven't seen each other for about 10 years.

Now, about the man! We met on the internet last summer. We lost touch. I thought he was not interested so I continued to surf the website we met on but nothing came up. I was going through my inbox before I deleted my account for good and ran across an old message from him, clicked on it because I didn't remember who he was and he replied to me. The site is designed to alert you when someone looks at your profile. Since I looked at his it let him know I had. The rest is history. He bought me a plane ticket and told me to bring my good black dress because he's taking me to a really nice restaurant in San Francisco. I've never been to a really nice restaurant. I can hardly wait!!!! He seems to truly care about me and vice versa. He is a good man, very caring and puts others before himself. He is, most importantly, a Christian. If we click I would have to move there. That would be great because I would get to live near Deana again. That would rock!

Time will tell!

I leave on the 12th and coming back on the 16th!

Can't wait!

Life is Sweet!

My Song

This song defines my entire life....it says exactly how I feel in my heart. I live and breathe for Christ alone. When life seems to be too much I remember His grace and His tender mercy and die to myself that others will see Him and not me. It brings John 3:30 to mind "He must increase and I must decrease." There can be no life without a death. In order for the butterfly to live the moth must die. In order to have Christ manifest Himself in me, I have to die to my will and my desires. What He has for me is so much greater than what I could ever hope to have.

My Pastor has challenged each member of the church to win one soul for Christ in 2008. I have witnessed to two people already but they did not make a decision at that point. The seed in planted though. It is truly my desire to win souls for Christ. My class ring from DBU has an image of Jesus on one side holding a fishing net, the net wraps around the bottom of the ring up to the opposite side. This net is a reminder to all students to be fishers of men; to fulfil the great commission that Jesus commanded of His followers.

In Christ alone I place my trust!

Life is sweet, sweet indeed!

Grad School

Class started....I am tooooooo old for this! I thought I loved school....I was wrong! I love the last class, I love the graduation, I love saying I have a degree. That's it! I loathe the rest! hahaha I have to force myself to study. I should be studying right now but am blogging and watching stuff I TiVo'd 2 weeks ago. I have clean closets and an organized pantry....anything productive to keep from studying!

I should be at work right now but have another cold! Things are rough with my new partner at work. Any and all prayers are coveted! Youth is no match for age and wisdom! I hope he will settle down and "get" what we do. So far the wheel is still spinning but the hamster's gone!

Speaking of work.....I walked back to the back the other day....didn't see anyone along the way which is really not all that unusual. Get in the break room to buy a drink before I head to my office and one of the other GL's pops in and says "You know you got something going on with your pants, right?". I say "No, what are you talking about?" He repeats himself. I again say I don't know what he is talking about. Then he says "Check the back of your pants." Yep, you guessed it....a rip...a BIG old rip! I immediately tied my hoodie around my waist and told my SGL I had to leave to buy some new jeans. I found my partner and told him he would have to get the shift going and I would be back ASAP. I run to the evil empire (Wal-Mart) cause it is closest to work and buy some jeans, I even took the time to try them on. I get back to the DC, walk the mile to the back again and put them on and go to zip them up and....drum roll....the zipper broke! I was sooooooooo mad! I was not a happy camper. I took them off, put my ripped jeans back on, put the hoodie back over my rear end and went to my start-up meeting. I got the guys going and then had a meeting with my SGL. As we were wrapping the meeting up an announcement went out over the intercom that a Team Member was hurt in one of my areas. My SGL and I practically ran down there to see what it was. Of couse the area was about a 1/2 mile from her office. We get there just as they were taking him to the nurses office so I went up there to get him squared away and then went back to Wal-Mart to get yet another pair of jeans! Talk about a harried start to the night. You would think that showing your rear at work (literally) would be bad but the night went down hill from there! Having a wardrobe malfunction when you are the Supervisor of 27 men is NOT a good thing! But (no pun intended) I made it through and now have a new pair of jeans! Trust me, I did some checking on the other's before I went to work the next night!!

Alright...Survey of Accounting is calling my name! I'd rather watch paint dry...it would be WAY MORE EXCITING!!

Life is Sweet!

He Made My Life Complete

This is an email I got from my oldest son, David when I emailed my family that I had been accepted to Graduate School. I replied back to him and told him that all I have gone through in my life was all made worthwhile by his words to me. Here it is:

Mom, I love you to death and I want you to know that I am more proud
of you than I can express. In the past few years you have made difficult
decisions and changes in your life. Now here you are on your way to
completeing what most will never attempt. You are an amazing woman and I
am proud to say that your my Mother.


Love,

David

Knowing that I am loved deeply and have made my child proud of me has truly made my life complete. If you knew Dave you would understand. He is an amazing person, he is sweet, caring, wise beyond his years, very intelligent, and one of the funniest people on earth. I couldn't be prouder to be his Mom! And what better thing is there than that?

I Have Issues!

Self-Esteem
–noun 1. a realistic respect for or favorable impression of oneself; self-respect.

This is what I need! A large dose of it too.

I had a date Saturday night with a really good looking man. He cancelled Friday. Via text message. He hasn't called since. (Keep in mind that I met him on the internet. He made the initial contact. We talked a few times. Lost touch. He called again last week and said he had some life issues come up but was still interested. We met for lunch Monday and then he called a few days later and asked me out for Saturday. HE pursued ME.....he asked me out for the 2nd date..... ???

Prior to the text message I was happy, happy, happy. Post text message I was sad, sad, sad! Saturday night as I was on my way home from work my good friend Roland called. He told me something he used to tell his soldiers. He said "I told them 'You can let them hurt you, torture you, kill you, but never, ever let them take your self-esteem.' Lora, you are letting these men take your self-esteem." I knew he was right and felt the tears well up in my eyes and stream down my face. He hit the nail on the head. So, now that I know what I have been doing I can change that behavior. Obviously, I have issues. Why would I let whether or not I have a man, a good looking man, determine my self-esteem? OK, lets look at the facts here:

I am:

- a Christian who loves the Lord and practices my faith
- a caring mother/sister/aunt/daughter/mom-in-law/grandma
- have a family who truly loves me
- have a lot of very good friends who truly care about me
- educated/intelligent/pursuing a graduate degree
- make very good money
- have "Executive" in my job title
- pay all my bills
- keep one heck of a clean house
- darn good cook
- very funny
- volunteer in my community
- well respected by my employees, my peers, and my superiors at my job
- brush and floss daily :)

Now...if I knew a woman that had all these characteristics I would think she had it going on. I really would. So, why would I think less of this woman because she is me? I have no answer because it makes no sense.

On New Year's Eve, Dr Evan's preached about how we are a masterpiece of God's creation, that there is no one else like us and that God created us just as we are for His purposes. When I think of it that way it takes on a whole new meaning. I heard the song "Fingerprints of God" by Steven Curtis Chapman the other day and it really goes along with what Roland told me. Here are the lyrics. So, think about it and don't let anyone take your self-esteem!

Fingerprints of God

I can see the tears filling your eyes
And I know where they're coming from
They're coming from a heart that's broken in two
By what you don't see
The person in the mirror
Doesn't look like a magazine
Oh but when I look at you
It's clear to me

That I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know it's true
You're a masterpiece that all creation
Quietly applauds
And you're covered with the fingerprints of God

Never has there been and never again
Will there be another you
Fashioned by God's hand and perfectly planned
To be just who you are
And what He's been creating
Since the first beat of your heart
Is a living, breathing
Priceless work of art

And I can see the fingerprints of God
When I look at you
I can see the fingerprints of God
And I know it's true
You're a masterpiece that all creation
Quietly applauds
And you're covered with the fingerprints of God

Just look at you
You're a wonder in the making
Oh, And God's not through
In fact, He's just getting started!

How Will You Be Defined in the Dictionary?

Lora --

[noun]: A person who is a master of making ravioli

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Hey it could be worse...it could have said "A person who is a master of toilet cleaning"....

So Many Men So Little Time

Wow, just when I give up....the flood gates open up and it's raining men!!!!!!!

God's Blessings

I got the best blessing from God today. I went to pick up my mail from my PO Box and there was a check for $431. I was hoping for $40. I was in tears in the PO! I had just prayed for a financial blessing so that I could buy a coat and work boots for my son. He is having some financial struggles right now and I really can't afford anything extra right now until about February. By then he'll freeze to death working outside in Indiana. So, I prayed. God answered my prayer! I shot off a check to my son, paid a bill, paid my tithes off of the bonus money and have some left over. I might just buy those tables from IKEA that I want for my living room. They have a coffee table and 2 end tables for $75. Not the best but good enough for me!

I have been crying ever since I went to the post office. God is so good. So faithful. He loves us so much. I called my friend Lee and told him about it and he said he wishes he had the same relationship with God that I do. God blessed me last week too. I had to have some work done on my car and they said it would be $250 and it turned out to be something minor that cost $20!!!! I told Lee that my relationship is not special and that God loves him the same as He loves me. Anyone can have it, it's not exclusive. Just trust and obey. I fail, miserably most days, but I truly love the Lord with all my heart, all my soul, and with ever fiber of my being. God has richly blessed me. It may be pocket change to some to have an extra $400, but it's big to me. God blessed me so that I can bless my son. My son said he would not take the money but I insisted. I told him he would be stopping my blessing if he refused. He said he would take it. It feels so good to be able to buy him a warm coat and new shoes. He is 29 but he is still my baby!!!! God is so very good to me. I love Him, I praise Him, I worship Him, I adore Him.

I will be at church to bring in the New Year! I ask you, what better place is there to be on New Years Eve than church? None, I tell you!

Life is sweet. God is so good!!

Merry Christmas!!

Wishing all of you a very Merry Christmas and the best New Year ever!



I am home, I woke up alone, I opened my presents from Lee, he called me 3 times. I called my sons! I called my sister who has a house full; Mom, our other sister, my niece and nephew and a few others are there. I wish I was there. I cried last night because I want to be home so bad! But it was my choice to stay here so I have no one to blame but me. I am still sad, and I still miss them. BUT...it's going to be a great Christmas. I'm going to one of my best friends house. Here is a pic we took at Six Flags a few weeks ago right before we went on the Sponge Bob 4D ride. Her family will be at her home today and she invited me! I am honored to spend the day with them. They are a great Christian family so to celebrate the birth of our Savior with them will be wonderful.



This time of year is so emotional for me. The songs. The lights. The sights. The sounds. The time to really reflect on what is important, what really matters; faith and family. We only pass throught this life once. We can't take anything with us but the love given to us by others. So being a good person is all that really matters. Showing the love of Christ to others, helping those in need. Being a good friend. I have been truly blessed, God has been so good to me and I love him with everyting that is within me!

Sick Again

Darn it! I am sick again....this time I have pneumonia. Never had that before. It sux! Every time I go home in the winter I get sick. I was off work all last week for vacation and then this week I can't go in because of this. My boss got kind of crappy with me too, but if I have pneumonia I can't go in.

I woke up in the middle of the night Friday with a terrible runny nose and feeling lousy. Then I had to wait in Dallas at the airport for 3 hours for a ride home. My ride couldn't pick me up as she had a Christmas party to attend. My flight was delayed by 1.50 hours; not due to the snow storm in Indy but due to high winds in Dallas. Because of the delay she couldn't pick me up and everyone else I called at the last minute already had prior engagements. I asked Lee first but he couldn't do it either. He sux! I stood outside for 30 minutes in that bitter cold in Dallas waiting on the fricking taxi I called. The moron driver drove past me the first time and I couldn't flag him down to stop as I was waiting inside the door to the terminal and couldn't leave my luggage to run after him. I went back in and called again and waited outside this time. That's when I think I did the damage and got pneumonia!

So, I'm home today. Laying on the couch watching movies. Right now I have Elf in which is my FAVORITE Christmas movie. Makes me laugh until I am in tears every time! Here is one of my favorite clips from the movie! Enjoy!!!

Adorable Child

This kid is just too cute for words! And speaking of cute kids.........

My granddaughter is on her way to being an Olympic Gymnast! She can balance on the sit and spin for hours and then jumps off only to climb up again. She is just too precious! I had a great time with the kids. David and I really connected and had a great visit. I just need to move back and really get involved in their lives again. I miss them terribly!

He's My Son

My son, my precious baby boy, is in trouble. His health is in jeopardy. He has a staph infection in the knee he just had surgery on, thrush, strep throat and something else that I can't share right now. Please pray for him. My heart is breaking. I love both of my boys more than life itself. He is a grown man but he is still my baby. As a mother the love for your children grows deeper and deeper the older they get. I thought when they were babies that my heart would burst from love for them but it truly does grow as they do. I prayed for God to take the cup from Matt and give it to me and then I heard Mark Schultz in concert tonight and he told us the story of the song he wrote titled "He's my Son". Mark was a youth pastor and a 7th grade boy at his church was diagnosed with cancer. His father told Mark that he prayed daily for his son and one night Mark was up late into the night and God gave him this song. When he sang it tonight tears streamed down my face as I thought of my son. He's not just anyone, he's my son. Please pray for him. Please.

"He's My Son" by Mark Schultz

I'm down on my knees again tonight
I'm hoping this prayer will turn out right
See there is a boy that needs Your help
I've done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired I'm sure You can understnad
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand
And she tries not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes

CHORUS:
Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me Let me take his place somehow
See, he's not just anyone He's my son

Sometimes late at night I watch him
sleep I dream of the boy he'd like to be
I try to be strong and see him through
But God who he needs right now is You
Let him grow old Live life without this fear
What would I be Living without him here
He's so tired and he's scared
Let him know that You're there

CHORUS
Can You hear me? Can You see him?
Please don't leave him He's my son

Money's Worth

Looks like I'm getting my money's worth from the counseling! I have been making really good decisions for myself as of late. What are they you ask? Well, let me tell you.


1) Kirk asked me to marry him. I said "no". While my heart still wants to say "YES, YES, YES", my head knows that I would setting my heart up for a lifetime of pain. He has shown that he can't give me what I need.

2) Lee was a jerk to me on the golf course for the 2nd time. He talked so very disrespectfully to me. Not at all the way a man should treat a woman. He uses the excuse that professional players are talked roughly to by their coaches. Well, guess what Skippy? I'm not a pro and neither are you! I refuse to be treated like that. He had me in tears for the 2nd time. He also suggested that if I grew my hair to my waist, got green contacts, and "lost a bunch of weight" that I would have "millionaire's climbing over each other to get to you, girl." So apparently if I alter my entire appearance I will be attractive. Well, guess what? I am attractive as I am. See photo:


This is what I wore to the semi-formal dinner dance hosted by the singles group for ages 35+ at my church. I don't need long hair, green eyes, or to lose a bunch of weight.....well maybe some but not a bunch! haha So, Lee is no longer 'boyfriend' material. He has been down-graded to friend only.


3) I met someone new. Now if I had met him a year ago I would have been in love already. Go ahead, ask me if I am in love now? The answer you've all been waiting for...... no. I like him a lot. I have a few reservations but for the most part he seems like a really good guy. Kinda handsome. Tall. Christian. LOVES his Momma. Loves dogs. We seem to be compatible on several deeper issues. Time will tell. He has a good job and pointed out that we could be a "power couple" as we both make well above the poverty level. LOL He loves my cooking too! We watched "Elf" the best Christmas movie in the world (well my world and way) and he loved it too! Bonus points! So, we'll see. I'm kinda excited about where this will go. I would love it if tonight was the last first date for the rest of my life. His name is Michael. My oldest son's middle name is Michael. My youngest son's middle name is Lee. Isn't that an odd coincidence that I would have two relationships back to back with men who's middle names are the same as my boys?


So the counseling is working. I am making WAY better decisions for myself. I was pretty disappointed over things not working out with Lee but not devastated as I have been in the past. I had high hopes that he would be the one for me. He's very funny and I really like him. But I will never be good enough for him. And I don't mean that from my opinion. I mean that from his. I am not pretty enough in his eyes, or thin enough. It's sad that he can't see what an incredible woman I really am. I am a damn good catch if I do say so myself! LOL

Candidate

If you would like to see who matches your political views on a limited number, however, important ones, then go here. According to this site I should vote for John McCain...which is surprizing. I was leaning toward Barak Obama! What a difference. I do know that I have to vote for the candidate who most mirrors my Spiritual views such as opposition to abortion and other moral issues. So take the test and see which candidate matches your views.

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